Life is hard.
It's a constant battle that we most often feel we're losing.
And there are many enemies that we fight.
The mountains that stare us in the face.
The difficulties that rival our faith.
And somewhere along the way we lose perspective and shatter.
Well, that's what I've seen in my life.
But no matter how far I run, or how broken I get,
there is always something that remains the same:
His love, His Spirit, His joy.
A song:
Only You can love me
Even as I break Your heart
Only You can break me
And remake me into something new
~ Made New
Job 5:18
For He wounds, but He binds up; He shatters, but His hands heal.
God's will has always been upon my life.
Sometimes I've listened, other times not.
But no matter how much I lose myself or I feel that I've lost God,
He's still there.
He hasn't changed.
His will is still better.
But the thing is, I like running. It's easy.
And hiding, I like that too.
In the nature of humans,"Fight or flight,"
I have always chosen the latter.
But, for some reason it never works.
And it accomplishes the opposite of what I want.
Psalm 139:8
If I ascend up into heaven, Thou art there:
if I make my bed in hell, behold, Thou art there.
But the Holy Spirit always draws me back.
From tears He brings me to a loving embrace.
And He encourages, He builds up.
He restores.
Even still, I never think I can do enough.
I lack faith, and I lack trust in the Lord.
Because I rely on my power and ability.
And in my pursuit to do everything I can to help others, I just end up being a weight.
Then condemnation sets in. And again, I want to run and hide.
But every time, God is there.
Every time I'm broken, He mends me.
For He alone is my salvation.
Matthew 11:28-30
"Come to Me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.”
The first two verses have always been easy to understand and a constant comfort that I have turned to for encouragement in all times.
The last verse has often confused me.
"For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.”
In that statement, God wasn't promising an easy life.
I don't see it as so.
What I'm learning is that He was promising one thing:
Himself.
Because He is all we need.
Psalm 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
